Hooked on a Feeling

I just got home from karate class and I gotta say, I feel rather marvelous. My mind is clear and though my body aches a bit (and will probably hurt more tomorrow), I feel sort of tingly and pretty alive.

I woke up last night, about 2am, experiencing a horrible panic attack. I was sweating and nervous... I'd almost say I was scared, though I am not sure of what. My mind was racing and my eyes were just WIDE open and for the life of me, I could not imagine going back to sleep. Just thoughts of all these things stressing me out were racing through my head.

My thesis. Well, it's due in a week. I am not really near done but I know that if history is any indication, I will put it off to the last minute and somehow manage a good grade. I worry about it a little here and there but really, not as much as I should be worrying, I guess.

My finances. I always worry about this. Even when I am at my most calm, somewhere in the back of my mind, I am worrying about my wretched financial situation. But it can't get worse and right now, at this precise moment anyway, I am worrying less about that and more about what's going to happen on the show I am watching. :)

My job. Well, the work is good, the boss still has her good days and bad, and I am going nowhere. It's ridiculous. I would say it is unreasonable for me to want a promotion before my two year mark but I know that I am already doing the higher-up job and not being paid the higher-up salary. And when I think I am getting close? The rug gets pulled out.

My diet. Well, it goes without saying-- this could be better. But I am loaded up on leftover chicken from my weekend (I threw a bridal shower) so I will, at least, eat a healthy lunch each day this week. I'm aiming for it.

Not a whole lot else to say, I suppose. Just feeling so good post-class, I wanted to say hello.

Comments

[erika]

good for you on the karate! danny also partakes in karate. he is working on getting his black belt in june in tang soo do. not only has his body changed , but so has his attitude in the 6 years that he has been practicing. its very inspirational. i have also become friends with one of his classmates, and i see such a positive change in him as well. when i watch his class perform i see great coordination, and focus...almost like a dance. and i understand now that it teaches that violence is the last resort. best of luck with it!

[Darcie]

I'm with you on the finances and diet worries. I constantly worry about our money. My credit is in dire straits, and my husband's is teetering on the edge (one foot in the grave, the other on a banana peel). I'm finally making money, but it's a big game of catch-up.

And as for diet...I'm a big self-sabotager. I do really good for a day and then I eat a pint of Haagen-Daaz. Go me. But congrats to you with the chicken!