Not so long ago, I tweeted to The Universe. Something like "Dear Universe, That's it. I can't take it anymore. I give up."
Amazingly, The Universe tweeted right back: "I know... But You're Strong Enough. Hugs, The Universe."
This made me happier with The Universe.
I had this beautiful and touching blog entry written out last night. A loving, meaningful tribute to my friends, who are awesome. I assure you, you would be in a puddle of tears right now had you been reading that instead of this. But Typepad went to the shits on me and so now I will have to try again. And see if I can meet my standard.
I've been impressed with myself recetly. I'm shocked how much I've been able to take. Sickness, surgery, death, heartbreak, car accidents... And getting laid off from my job a few weeks ago.
And FYI, for now, that is all I will say about that last thing. They have been more than fair to me and I still have to work there until the end of February. :)
But needless to say, I've felt quite on-the-brink these days.
I am trying so very hard to keep it together but I have to allow myself a modicum of craziness. Otherwise my next entry will be written from atop a bridge.
And here is something I am sure many of you know -- in times like this, we really get to find out who out true friends are. And mine have turned out ten fold. I'm so lucky to have such amazing people in my life. They have been there with hugs and humor, dinners and drinks, e-mails and offers. My friends are my strength.
More than that, I am so lucky that the teens I volunteer with are a giant mass of warmth and love. With every hug, smile or proclamation of love, they pick me up a little bit more. With every get well card or gift or "thank you," they remind me I am meaningful. And that is important.
The night before my surgery, my teens, not even aware I was about to have the surgery, gave me lots of hugs and a pretty fabulous Hanukkah present. They are perceptive and brilliant.
In short, I have a thing about Meerkats. Beyond that, you're just gonna have to trust me that this gift was the best thing ever.
To ALL of my friends, I thank you for letting me be stoic, for letting me be withdrawn AND emotional, for letting me totally closed off and then totally insane. I thank you for being amazing and being in my life.
To Typepad, I shake my fist. This entry did not even get halfway up the mountain I built last night. Damn you and your crashing uploader.
